Most important: I overdrafted my banking account by like $3.oo, thats it and now my bank balance is at $98 so I must pay that lol. In the mean time though, I owe HostGator ten dollars. Thats it, but if I dont pay my site might go down for like two days because at the moment I have no cash what-so-ever. So basically what Im asking is, if you see my site down, it will be right back. Affies please dont delete me. Thanks.

So, whats been going on in my life? Drama!. I haven't been living anywhere. I've been to my friend's house, boyfriend's house, cousin's, aunt's...anywhere really. Just where-ever I can go I take advantage of it. I've been so stressed, its not fun at all. My mom still haven't found a house, but me and her is barely ever on talking terms, so I aint seen her in a while. Its better that way though. I don't know what I'm going to do about my situation because it keeps getting worse. Kinda hard to focus when you're constanly thinking about everything, know what I mean? I barely sleep these days, and I barely smile. My eyes hurt so bad just from all the tears pouring down. I'm too young to be dealing with all this pain.

I'm not trying to get everyone's mood down and I really don't want to make people feel sorry for me. I am only informing you all of my problems because this is a blog right? Lol. I'm currently at my aunts house on my laptop, lucky for me she's got internet. I'm gonna shack up here for the night and think of what tomorrow's gonna be like for me. I've still been working, but I swear I want to quit so bad. I feel like I'm just done with every damn thing! I keep thinking suicidal thoughts, but don't worry..I'm not going to do it. I just sometimes wish that I go to sleep and never wake up, but then again I know I'm a strong chick, I'm a fighter and I know that I'll get past this. Soon hopefully, but there's really no telling.

My relationship with my boyfriend Mackenzie hasn't been going so great either. It kills me to think that it could one day be over soon. I am doing everything in my power to keep him. I just want us to be happy, me and him, thats all I ever wanted but I don't know how its going to turn out. I'm so in love with him and I'll be heartbroken if we dont work out. He's what's getting me through each and every day. Baby, I love you. Please know that.

Take care all and I hope all of you are in a better stage of your life right now. I am going to spend a few hours visitin my friends and affy's sites and leaving comments. Like I've said before, I appreciate all of you guys support. You guys are amazing...

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Thank you much to those of you that left your sweet comments on my last blog. I really appreciate all the support, and now that I look at it, I do kind of like the layout a little more better lol.

So, I recently moved out of my house and we are now in search for another one. The reason we left is mainly because of the owner of the house. I swear, she was like straight maniac. I know it was her house my mom was renting from, but she was literary there every single day with something new to complain about. We only lasted in that house maybe three months, if that. She just really knows how to make a person feel uncomfortable. It was also kind of funny because as we were moving, the neighbors said that no one ever last in that house. I see why.

Anyways, at the moment my mom has been staying with her significant other, and I have been staying with mine. I'm actually back and forth between the houses until we find another place in which we could reside in. I have been thinking a lot about moving out on my own. Me and my mother don't really see eye to eye all the time. Its a strange relationship that we have with each other, its also tough. I can't get through one day without screaming at that woman. I know its probably wrong of me to do that and some may think that I should be banished to hell, but honestly I don't know how to deal with it anymore. When I go days without seeing her we talk on the phone and its all good. Its just better that way. I want to find something cheap, but that's for sure aint about to happen in California. I'll figure it out though.

So with that said, I could blog to you all because I'm using my cell phone, but I can't add any new content until my living situation gets better. Sorry people. I know I promised new stuff, its still on the way. Have faith! Lol.

To my wonderful affies, I hope you all are doing well. Thanks for making me apart of your site's family. I still read all y'alls blogs every chance I can, but my stupid cell phone don't always let me comment.

To my visitors, keep visiting my site please. I really truly appreciate it. My affies have amazing sites as well. I encourage you all to check their sites out. :)

Before I go I just want to share with everyone the song that has been stuck in my head for the past weeks. Its by Ashanti, its called You're Gonna Miss. Its basically about her and her man breaking up and she's just telling him how much he's going to miss out. Real good song, I think I have it on my side music player. Just keep clicking through until you notice her voice.

Okay, and one last thing before I end this blog. My boyfriend's cousin let him borrow her Prison Break DVDs. If you don't know what Prison Break is, its a show that comes on Fox network. Until a few days ago I have never seen it, but I'm really happy I decided to watch. That show is so bomb! Go watch it ASAP. If you seen it before, isn't it just the shit?! The main character on the show name is Micheal but his real name is Wentworth Miller. Strange name, but gorgeous talented man. Look him up, google him or something. He is an amazing actor, I swear and I promise you girls, he's a looker! Lol. My man would kill me if he read this but he don't read my blogs anyway. Just in case he decides to though, I love you honey!

Alright, I need some rest. Talk to you all laters. :D

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As you can see, I changed the layout. I'm currently updating all the pages and such..so just hang tight. I will write more when I'm done, or maybe tomorrow..too sleepy lol.

So, new layout! I wanted it back Rihanna as soon as I took her off the first time lol. I decided to this something different than my last layout so I made it more smaller and closed in. I like this layout, but I honestly don't love it. I think I could of did a lot better, I don't know. What do you guys think?

Nothing really to blog about, my life is oh so boring right now. Its like I need a change or something. I've been feeling depressed lately. Like every little thing makes me so angry or something. I just wish certain things would stop happening to me. Its getting a little repeatitive and annoying. But enough of my bitchin' lol...hope you all have a wonderful day. Better than mine has been.

SITE UPDATES COMING SOON. I PROMISE.

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"A strong earthquake shook Southern California today, causing buildings to sway and triggering some precautionary evacuations."
"A 5.4-maginitude earthquake hit Southern California this morning, but no major damage or injuries have been reported, authorities said."

Ok, so I woke up at 11:42am to the ground shaking badly. I wasn't panicking or anything. I was just sitting on the couch waiting for it to be over. It went for a little while, and it hit pretty hard but it didn't scare me what so ever. I just kind of sat there, like I was in a trance or something. The grocery store by me had almost all of their aisles on the floor. It was crazy. My mom's talking about an aftershock, and she's like ready to run outside lol.

I don't work today so I'm probably just going to chill with my friend, just hang or something. I do not want to sit in the house!

Site News: I've been getting more and more traffic, and I just want to thank all of you that visit my site on a regular basis. I appreciate it much! I decided that I am going to add myspace layouts, and more coded layouts soon, so look out for it.

EDIT: .... HELP! PLEASE! FreeHostia canceled Amarilys' site www.digitalsugar.org; & all links need to be changed to Digital-Sugar.Org ASAP!!! Anyone who blogs this message in their next blog update NEEDS to contact Jessica (either by blog comment, shoutout board or email) and in exchange for helping out and posting THIS MESSAGE on your next blog update, you will receive from me, 100 plugs in every blog update Savvy-Mate.Org has in the month of August as well as lots of plugs from Amarilys for helping her out.

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